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wweeee [28 Mar 2007|08:21pm] ookay, soo i't basically spring break for me right now. i can't wait to be in florida. me and jenna are gonna relax with my uncles and enjoy the sunshine... and obviously be shitty every second. i had my last midterm this morning but i couldn't finish my essay, oy. i ran out of time. we'll see how that goes. tomorrow two of my three classes got cancelled and my friday class got cancelled so i'm d.o.n.e. i'm going to meet with another advisor tomorrow so i can possibly figure out what i am going to do with my life... i mean, i guess i'm going to be a history major?? but not so sure what i'm gonna do with it... but in honesty, i want to work at hillel for the rest of my life and be a good little jewish girl and marry a nice jewish doctor. i'm working on it. there is a prospective in the making. :D done with assholes (lies) done with bullshit (lies too, obviously) i cannot wait for lost tonight and my dinner date with ames... cosi maybe??? hmmm. then i think i'm going out with murray and garson, always a good old rowdy time. tomorrow is ari's birthday sooo that means craziness with cleveland kids and my new babygirls. loves it. peace comment<3

:) [26 Mar 2007|01:15pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | the birds chirping outside because it's spring! ] hi, remember me!? well, i can't say much, well really anything right now because i need to finish typing up some notes on english politics, run to starbucks and then get over to work. but, i'll be back soon. comment<3

oy vey [05 Apr 2006|12:04pm] kahalsagha crush on boys 1comment<3

[02 Jan 2006|10:39pm] oh, well my phone is broken. FUCK 3comment<3

EEP [08 Sep 2005|11:43am] okay so college was fun for one day.... but now i am stressed out. what happened!? 7comment<3

my list! [22 Jul 2005|08:43pm] [ music | from first to last ] here is my list of ten songs i have been really into lately.. lauren tagged me! i feel special. so, here you goooo: paramore- pressure hollywood undead- turn off the lights underoath- reinventing your exit mates of state- ha ha copeland- brightest from first to last- emily funeral for a friend- streetcar jamison parker- slow suicide fall out boy- tell that mick he just made my list... senses fail- 187 5comment<3

"everything i once had" [18 Apr 2005|03:08pm] Everything I once had The bar on 1st Avenue, we went there solely for you So you can flirt with my best friend Kiss a girl, tell me why you're laughing I won't hold on to this There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out In my bed for six long months February, Valentines Day Did my best to avoid the red cliches So you dumped me on the subway On my way to work at 9 in the morning Everybody else is holding bouquets Now I'm holding my face in the basement Scratching away for any trace Of affection you will leave Falling victim as the publics prey I won't hold on to this Anyone is suitable for you, I guess, tonight You weren't fazed It's over with You my beautiful You weren't fazed It's over with you my beautiful With your beautiful blue and white 5comment<3

|| embrace forever || [26 Mar 2005|08:12am] [ mood | okay ] [ music | hawthorne heights- blue burns orange ] okay, so here is the shit that went down yesterday, ughh! my mom woke me up at 8 to finish packing. i was mega grumpy because i didn't want to leave at all. i seriously love it so much in florida. it makes me so happy. i was so happy last week, honestly. so i got all of my shit together and my mom and i talked about how i procrastinate but i always get everything done. that made me happy because she realizes that i am responsible in an unresponsible way. we (mom, dad, adam, me, uncle k, uncle t and samantha) all left for the airport at ten because it is a really big travel day considering that tomorrow is easter. everything was fine getting there and stuff. but of course our plane is running late, so we boarded late, ugh. we eventually get on the plane around 12 and get in line to taxi... after waiting in line for about 45 minutes in a line of 29 planes our captain says we have to get out of line to get more fuel. that's almost funny considering there were storms in jacksonville and the ft. lauderdale airport was only using one runway to do take offs and landings. wtf!!?!? so yeah, um, we went back to get fuel and were STUCK in the airplane for 4 hours until take off. while we were couped up in the plane they had to turn everthing off, so for an hour and a half we were in there with no air conditioning in humid 84 degree weather. i loved it!?!? ew. so, instead of getting home at 2:40 yesterday we got into cleveland at 7. IT WAS HELL. i got home and went straight out to dinner at tommys with hannah, bailey, kk, ashlee and jenna. we had so much fun. i love those girls. after yum yum food we went to caribou and mmm drank tea with hannah and we were really loud and obnoxious and everyone hated us. haha, hannah, you're wet. i then got to my car to find a parking ticket. ew. but, when i was driving home i called wes again to try and wish him a happy birthday... he doesn't answer his phone. i called julian, he didn't pick up but i just wanted to say hi. ummm, yeah. then i called p.trick to tell him i was home and he was so cute and funny hanging out in a parking lot. ha. but in the middle of talking to him chase called me and my heart skipped a beat, i was so excited. he wanted to hang out. :D but it was 10:30 and i was too tired to go out to westlake... so i think we are doing something today and maybe something with alma! ummm, but then i got online and had really nice conversations with lots of people. i talked to brian, and he like called me out of the blue, it was weird. he is gorgeous and tells me i am sexy? hmm. haha. he wants to hang out over break too. SLOCKERS. hopefully my real letter from skidmore will come today. this is all <3 5comment<3

my life reads like the classifieds [19 Feb 2005|12:48am] [ music | the fight- karaoke star ] So I am pretty much obsessed with my friends. Holly said I have a "secret life", tehehe. I just need to pinch myself sometimes and wonder why I am so lucky to get myself into the coolest situations and have the best friends in the universe. Tonight at The Grog I cut Matt's hair from The Fight in the bathroom, it was marvelous. I want to fall in love with him and his cool British accent. But, yeah, that won't happen. That's why there is such a thing as dreams. He came to Tommy's with all of us, *sigh*. Okay, enough, haha, sorry. I just love things right now even though I am not into college, K8! said I should just do hair, OKAY! 8comment<3

last public entry [10 Jan 2005|06:46pm] THIS IS FRIENDS ONLY NOW sorry guys- but i wanted to make this friends only from now on. there is some down there to read... but if you want more just add me, comment and i'll friend you back! kthnxbye. 7comment<3

just bend the pieces til they fit. [14 Dec 2004|06:15pm] [ music | dashboard confessional ] my mom got her cortozone shot in her hip today. she's in pain,i feel bad. she said the needle was long. there is a bruise. poor jill. i hope this will make her feel better so she can finally go work out again and stop complaining about how she is fat when she weighs 105 lbs. right. anyone who tells you that they like this weather is crazy in the head. anyone for driving down to florida right about now??! haha. congrats to everyone who got into schools. i am so proud!!! if you tell me you got accepted chances are i might cry, ask ferguson my little princeton tiger. 12comment<3

you know how we do. [13 Dec 2004|10:13pm] [ music | coheed... claudio will come and kill you!!!!! ] "you mess with one of us... you mess with all of us!"   -varsity b hockey quote for 2005 (i'm including varsity b girlfriends in on this one too boys) watch out little fuckers. 5comment<3

hmm [13 Dec 2004|08:34pm] thank you for all of your lovely comments anonymous mean person. you obviously have a lot of time for reading my livejournal considering all of the anger and hatred you have against me. well anyways, on a brighter note- at least my posts are being read! wrap this tight around your throat 8comment<3

bored. [13 Dec 2004|01:13pm] [ music | gatsby's american dream ] -katy- touching her red lipstick and sprayed hair she sits relaxed in the rickety green booth, her feet are up, crossed and comfortable. the air is stale with cigarette smoke and hot breath she smacks her bubblegum, her brilliant red lips take center stage platenium strands of hair weave in and out of her stout fingers bored. she reaches over to steal a kiss with a lack of anything better to do, he loves her. heads together, he smiles at her he squeezes her tight he never wants to let go... she sneaks a glance at him through the corner of her made-up eyes she thinks maybe, you're going to be the one that saves me. -the gentle art of making enemies- light one more smoke and please sweetheart, pout those lips lower bring them down, closer to my expectations of what i thought of you you said you jump off that bridge with me i only wanted you to do it alone kiss that pavement sweet be certain that she wipes your tears when you want to come running back to me maybe not today, but suck her guts dry i think im doing alright in getting by with arms empty, the same as i started i sink into sheets mapping out your death. -today i imagined i was him- just come running back to me it's alright princess, one more time's fine be sure to shut the lights before your heart catches fire no one wants to see an explotion with a glare i stay with tears on my lap and faint bruises on my heart it's no sercret he snuck under your sheets again please don't worry, i already know come closer just to brush your skin against mine to conjure up memories of me wanting to wrap your long brown hair around your throat and hoping to watch you struggle for your last breaths of air while i sigh and try to forgive myself for our last goodbye. -please clean up your mess- i watched her tear the guts from your stomach you hurt now more than before please forgive me for just standing there, but all i wanted to do was help. 3comment<3

die white girls [13 Dec 2004|12:25pm] [ mood | trying to move on. ] [ music | coheed and cambria ] i am sitting at home because i had a physics test today and i was not prepared... not like i will really know it by tomorrow... but its worth a try. after i found out marcus passed away last night i couldn't study anymore. his funeral was lovely and very cold and snowy. i dug him a little hole next to the garage and then i had my dad carfully put him in his resting place. i then proceeded to bawl. it was heart wrenching. my mom then begged me to come inside, but i told her i needed some alone time with marc and it will be ok because i am warm in my uggs. he was such a good little fish. i made sure to say the shema for him because i don't know if he remembered to say it before he died. my mom laughed at me when i told her i was sitting shiva. it's not a joke. this is a time of mourning. thank you kate and chris for your journal entries that made me laugh. it cheered me up a bit. for the record i kind of like getting waxed because its easy in the summer... but when hair grows back, holy shit its so itchy. sarah, thank you for calling me last night, it made me really happy. i hope you had fun at em's ball. marcus will miss you. we still have your fishies. not gonna lie about it, really diappointed with the matchbook/mcs ep, it kind of sucks. but the art work is amazing so i am keeping it solely for that reason. i really want my mom to buy some kumquats, i think they are so super good. shout out to a certain special someone, "go to hell who needs you" 2comment<3

this is a death notice [12 Dec 2004|08:47pm] [ mood | the most depressed ever ] [ music | jimmy eat world- may angels lead you in ] ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ my dearly beloved fish marcus died today. he was one of the best friends i have ever had. he always listen to my problems and never interrupted me. i love him so much and i miss him so much already. i never got to say goodbye. i cant tell any of you how upset i am. i can't even walk into my room. i can't stop crying. he was the cutest, gayest, most annorexic friend i have ever had. i love him so much and can't believe he is gone from me forever. adam and my mom say, "hes just a fish and you can get another one tomorrow." YOU CAN'T JUST GET ANOTHER FUCKING FRIEND. YOU CAN'T BUY A NEW ONE. i cannot stop crying. how could he be taken away from me like this. if anyone wants to attend calling hours, (even though this isnt the jewish way of doing things) i will probably have them tomorrow. i will be sitting shiva so please feel free to come over and bring me food during this next week. i will be wearing black tomorrow and a ripped piece of clothing to remember my dear friend marcus shemory. you will always be in my heart, always and forever you badass little guy. thank you for everything i know you will have a nice life somewhere else. please rest in peace. may angels lead you in 5comment<3

hold your breath because you only make things worse [12 Dec 2004|06:52pm] [ music | oasis- wonderwall ] so proud of my hanukkah gifts... uggs a new driedel(sp?) for my collection senses fail motion city soundtrack/matchbook romance ep coheed and cambria gift certif. to urban human rights campaign messenger bag gift certif. to john roberts paul frank flip flops billabong skirt this is very not like me to list things... but i am excited for my presents. still waiting from auntie anita, uncle rick, rohan and naya. i think nana and zayde got me something else but i cant think of it... next vbp i wanna go.. hahah. things with tom are ok now. comment<3

good times! [12 Dec 2004|12:26pm] I scored a 51% on the "How HB are you?" Quizie! What about you?</b> comment<3

sing me anything [11 Dec 2004|11:56pm] [ mood | emo ] [ music | straylight run ] i do want to talk to you but i don't want to weird you out and i don't want to be all clingy or give off that impression no you arent i just told you, its me whos scared. you dont understand that i am terrified of knowing that this could be right. whys that i very often run away from things im really good at making messes out of situations like this. i kind of suck at life right now umm no sucking at life please i really dont know how to not i like this pink comment<3

its like this [11 Dec 2004|05:32pm] i am still in my pajamas and its 5:32. i wish it was family hanukkah already... i cant wait until tomorrow. i need a shower. i need to go finish watching americas next top model. bye. 2comment<3

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